I think I’ve lost my mind…
I’ve never woken up every single hour of the night thinking of someone before.
The minutes dragged on…
The hours… I thought they’d never pass.
How could this happen? How could I allow someone to consume me so completely?
I am so screwed if I lose her.
11:00pm- I looked for her.
12:00am- I checked again.
1:00am- I listened for her.
2:00am- I dreamed of her, only half asleep.
3:00am- I searched in a sleepy daze.
4:00am- I was fully awake and in agony over my obsession.
5:00am- I checked again and begged time to move faster.
6:00am- I tried to keep my eyes closed, knowing she wouldn’t be there.
7:00am- Finally time to get up, definitely no “snoozing” today… first thing I looked for her, just in case I’d missed something in the night.
Oh I haven’t experienced such insomnia in years…
If this continues, I’ll have to get some sleeping pills again.
Please let this end soon.