Right now, that’s all that’s on my mind- love.
Damn Australia. Why must it be so far away? And so impossible to get in to?
I told Michelle at work about her. She asked me what I’m doing here; why I’m not in Australia with my girl. Good question. I’m here because it’s too damn expensive and complicated to move to another country. Believe me, I would be there if I could.
I asked my girl if things would be different if I were there. Of course they would have been different. Obviously my national limitations aren’t the only reason I’m not with her, but if I could have been there when she needed me, everything would have played out differently.
I guess things work out the way they’re supposed to, but this can’t be all that’s supposed to be. This can’t be the end.
I look forward to the moment where things fall into place and stop hurting, no matter what place that is.
Alright, enough crying about lost love.
Life is still good. I’ve been working for Ruthann, taking care of her mother. They’re such good people.
Yesterday, Ruthann told me that her mother said I was her nicest friend. Haha. So sweet. I think her mother is just wonderful.
Plus, with this second job, I think I might be okay financially. It’ll still be a bit tight, but I’m getting there. I got extra hours at work, and I’m getting paid pretty well working for Ruthann. Not to mention my art. I’m going to set up a shop soon and try to sell my work.
I’m not as stressed or worried lately. Things are going well and I am going strong. My heart hasn’t been as bad lately. I actually think part of my heart problem was literally a broken heart. Heartache is stressful. I’m learning to manage it while at work, though, so things are improving.
As soon as I have an evening off, I’m going to start a new painting. I look forward to uploading it here and sharing it with everyone.
Off to work now.